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You may have noticed you can lose four hours to something that grips you and then be unable to start a ten minute form. That gap is the thing itself, not evidence that you were being lazy about the form. It often helps to stop asking why you cannot concentrate and start asking what would give this task enough charge to begin: a deadline, a person sitting with you, music, a timer.
The ways you take differ greatly (Quran 92:4). Your way of coming at work is one of those ways, and naming it plainly is not a complaint against how you were made.
Translation: M.A.S. Abdel Haleem, The Qur'an, Oxford University Press, 2004.
A meta-analysis pooled a lot of scattered brain imaging work in ADHD and identified a consistent pattern of differences in brain function during tasks. The individual studies disagreed with each other quite a bit, which is why pooling was needed, so read this as a broad pattern rather than a scan that would explain your particular Tuesday.
McCarthy H, Skokauskas N, Frodl T. (2014). Identifying a consistent pattern of neural function in attention deficit hyperactivity disorder: a meta-analysis.. Psychological medicine doi
Strength of evidence: one line of research. A single study, or a theoretical account.
Your brain gives effort to whatever it registers as worth the effort, and in ADHD that registering runs low for dull tasks.
Being able to disappear into something for six hours does not cancel the diagnosis out. Getting stuck on and getting stuck off are the same switch failing in two directions.
Much of what matters most in an assessment never comes up unless you ask for it directly. Unplanned pregnancies, money trouble, sackings, near misses in the car: people very rarely volunteer these.
ADHD does not usually vanish at eighteen. The visible fidgeting often settles while the inattention stays, and the restlessness moves inwards where nobody can see it.