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This matters most just before you hear that some of your thinking is off, because that lands very differently if you already believe you are the only one like this. Nobody is asking you to stop noticing yourself. The question is how much of your day it takes up, and what you conclude from it.
Lord, lift up my heart (Quran 20:25). Moses asked for his chest to be opened before facing a hostile crowd, so this dread has a prophetic precedent rather than a private shame attached to it.
طه
قَالَ رَبِّ ٱشۡرَحۡ لِي صَدۡرِي
Moses said, ‘Lord, lift up my heart
Qur’an 20:25read it in the library
Translation: M.A.S. Abdel Haleem, The Qur'an, Oxford University Press, 2004.
A cognitive behavioural account of social anxiety in stuttering makes the point neatly. Even where a difference is genuinely there and audible, the machinery keeping the fear going is the familiar one: self focus, safety behaviours and avoidance. So the maintaining process is not proof of an unusual mind. It is a theoretical review rather than a trial, so take it as a way of understanding rather than evidence for a treatment.
Iverach L, Rapee RM, Wong QJJ, Lowe R. (2017). Maintenance of Social Anxiety in Stuttering: A Cognitive-Behavioral Model.. American journal of speech-language pathology doi
Strength of evidence: one line of research. A single study, or a theoretical account.
Starting from what everyone shares keeps the work from sounding like a verdict on you.
Ask what the you of a year ago would have done with this. Often the honest answer is that she would have turned it over for a week and let it go.
Build the ladder from what you do now, not from what you think you should be managing. If phone calls are currently impossible, the first rung sits somewhere below a phone call.
Sometimes a parent who seemed cold or impossible to please turns out to have been working with a different wiring altogether. Learning that can loosen something no amount of arguing with yourself would.