Practices

Ask yourself two questions: how did I actually do, and what do I think I could have done. The gap between those two answers is real, and it is usually where the grief sits.

Most people can name that gap within seconds, which tells you they have been carrying it a long time without saying it. Writing both answers down…

Retirement takes away the timetable, the colleagues and often the person who kept the diary, and for someone with ADHD that can be the point where everything unravels.

It often gets read as depression or as an early sign of memory trouble, when what has actually happened is that a lifetime of borrowed structure…

Anger and grief often arrive with a late diagnosis, especially once treatment starts working and you see what you could have been doing all along. That reaction is not ingratitude. It needs room.

The grief is for a life that did not happen: the course you left, the marriage that wore out, the years of being told you were not trying. Left…

Darwin once stood with his face against the glass in front of a viper, quite determined not to move, and jumped backwards anyway when it struck. Deciding in advance does not govern a startle.

Keep that in mind on the days you conclude that flinching or snapping proves something shameful about your character. The determination was real and…

The part of you that detects threat is very old and does not take instructions in words. Telling yourself to calm down mostly demonstrates that.

It explains why sensible arguments made to yourself mid-surge do so little. What does reach it goes through the body and through attention: a longer…

You are built to react before you have thought about it. That is why the intention you held this morning loses so easily to the moment itself.

This is worth hearing properly, because most people take the failure personally. The reaction runs first and the thinking arrives a beat later, often…

Anger runs through all of you at once, in the breath, the muscles, the gut and the thinking. Which means there is more than one door into it.

You do not have to win the argument in your head to bring it down. Slowing the out-breath, unclenching your hands, standing up and walking into…

Anger is not a state you sit inside. It is the opening move of a sequence, and a sequence can be interrupted.

Think of it as a run of steps: something lands, the body leans in, the story forms, the mouth opens. Every step is somewhere a wedge can go, and the…

Anger is a genuine body event, not a thought you can talk yourself out of mid-flow. Expect it to keep running for a while after you have decided it should stop.

Which is a reason to have something prepared rather than something clever. A short sentence you have used before, a move you have made before, an…

Put a word to it while it is happening. Saying quietly that this is anger and it is climbing gives you something to hold that the bare feeling does not.

Naming is not explaining and it is not excusing. It is a plain description: heat, chest, wanting to say something cutting. Often the intensity drops…

When anger comes it takes the whole body with it: heart, hands, voice, attention. The system would rather do too much than too little.

That preference made sense where missing a real threat was fatal and an unnecessary fight was survivable. It is why the response feels so total and…

Under threat your thinking narrows to two boxes: with me or against me, safe or dangerous. It is fast and crude, and you can catch it happening.

The giveaway words are always, never, everyone, typical, exactly like last time. Hearing yourself use them is a sign of the narrowing rather than a…

Most anger episodes are over within minutes, which is no comfort at all. Nearly everything irreversible happens in the first few seconds.

The punch, the sentence you cannot take back, the resignation, the message sent. The threat reading is finished in about half a second while the part…

Listen for the shoulds. When anger is writing the sentence the words go absolute: always, never, obviously, and a great deal of no.

Alongside that, the greys vanish and everything feels unusually clear. That clarity is convincing and it is the least trustworthy part of the whole…

Most outbursts are a last try at getting something across. Underneath the noise there is usually a need that has gone unmet for a long time.

It rarely arrives as a message, though. It arrives as volume, and the other person hears the volume and misses the content entirely. Treating it as a…

A lot of anger carries a hidden demand: you damaged how I feel about myself, so now you restore it. That leaves your steadiness in somebody else's hands.

It feels like the opposite of dependence, all force and self-sufficiency, which is why it goes unnoticed. Look at the shape of the complaint. If the…